reliving the dream

i was asked the other day, of what i want this very moment.

gotta tell ya it took me a while to get to my answer but i know what it is.

(but sorry not gonna tell you). :)

however, my writing this post still has its goals, this post is here to state and realize that i have not given up on my dreams, yet i have learned how to compromise life and its obscurities. the very action that i thought would never came to my senses.

to some, i am still the same person with the same ambition and dreams, for others (less obvious observer) i am merely not myself for i have compromised some of my strategy.



my dear friends, fear not of what i have become, but be merry for what i have come to realize; for all of you are the very flavors that lights my path.

wish list

i was going to name this post bucket list.. but i dont think that would be a wise thing. ha ha the previous movie only showed that those who has will die. and i dont think im dying soon. i believe so (God help me!!!).

so here it is... my wish list.. before i move and leave this city behind.

- perkedel bondon ==>Checked - Thanks to Gung Wa
- breakfast at cloud 9
- kawah putih
- batu karas
- wind chime

i think this should be enough (for now)..

Knocked me off my feet

I see us in the park
strolling the summer days
of imaginings in my head.
And words from our hearts
told only to the winds
felt even without being said.

I don't want to bore you with my trouble
But there's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet.
There's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
knocks me off my feet.
I don't want to bore you with it
oh but I love you
I love you
I love you.
I don't want to bore you with it

oh but I love you
I love you

I love you more and more.

We lay beneath the stars

under a lover's tree
that's seen through the eyes of my mind.
And I reach out for the part
of me that lives in you
that only our two hearts can find.

I don't want to bore you with my trouble
But there's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet.
There's something 'bout your love
that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
knocks me off my feet.
I don't want to bore you with it
but I love you
I love you
I love you.
I don't want to bore you with it

but I love you
I love you ...

by: Stevie Wonder.

a taste of heaven

just found out i was deleted from my friend's friend list on the latest, newest, fast-growing online networking webpage.

geez, guess i cant say this day wont come and seems like we're not friends anymore.

eat that!

How to mend a broken heart

i was going to write a long and sentimental post in this one. but decided that there's no place for nice and subtle approach at this point.

so here it goes. i know that you might not need nor want my opinion but lets face it someone has to give you the cold hard truth. we all know you've been hurt, BIG TIME, and you are trying to cope and deal with that hurt and although it looks like you are doing OK and still on top of you game, the truth is you ARE NOT.

what worries me is that you are missing on opportunities of being with the one you dreamed of. it has nothing to do with your giving your attention 24/7, it has nothing to do with you being loyal and faithful, but it has EVERYTHING to do with you showing you willingness to make IT happen and your willingness to FIGHT for it.

it is understood that your past experience has not served you right, this to me give all the more reason for you to not give up. even though it was rough, and it hurts but the only way to ever get close to loving and having someone to be with you is to give all you got NO MATTER WHAT.

a wise man used to say "they all started with strangers" so therefore you will never know which one will be yours.

in the end, i can only say STOP whining you frog!!! start proving that you are worth it!!!!

FYI

there's nothing worse than having a bad food.

ups.. i was wrong...

BAD food and BAD service is the winner. nothing beats that.

as i was told when one wants to look for a delicious "nasi liwet" i should try this place located at dago area. the first experience was OK. although i was not a BIG fan of their signature dish, the atmosphere was a worthy trade. the second time, not so much.

i was certain that their signature dish does not suit my taste (exception should be noted for its tumis kangkung) and what's even worse is that the service, sucked BIG TIME. we sat on a gazebo (lesehan gazebo - where we sit on the floor) where some construction worker was throwing rocks - big rocks - next to us completely ignoring our comfort and supply of clean air. the waiter pouts every time we ask for things (this might be caused by their going-up-and-down stairs all day). but hey, isn't it their job to greet us and welcome our business?? and lastly, the rejection we get for wanting to move table to a more comfortable one was rejected, simply because we are lacking a person to fill in the chairs. that sealed the deal.

one thing for sure. i wont be coming back. unless im extremely drunk and someone had the energy to carry me through all those stairs.

HUH

to hear what is being said..

Paolo Coelho once suggested that the universe will conspire to your needs whenever you need it too.

in my case. im contemplating on what the universe is trying to tell me. trust me it's not easy to be me HA HA HA. or im just a perfect example of an ignorant slash stubborn slash teach-me-how-to-read-it-ASAP person.

bottom line is that im bored. bored with work. bored with the same routines. but still not bored with Bandung. funny hey..

Then, how to solve this current crappy condition. My to-do list would look like this:
1. Decide what i want
2. Make a Plan
3. Execute plan
4. if plan doesnt work, go to step 2 and formulate plan B, D, Z etc...
5. without the intention of sounding like a religious bastard, praying is in order.

Now, i think im ready to rule the world :P.

although step 1 may look easy, i can guarantee you it wont be done briefly.

pray for me will ya..