When we express things

in my spare time (read as avoiding and denying the reality of research proposal writing) i googled what people are doing. people namely past acquaintances, past memory, things and places of what is used to be.

then i bumped into picture that confirms newly acquired news. that it is true, people go to various length for acknowledgment and affirmation from their surroundings.

as I am also dwelling with ways to picture myself in further education, i am thinking, should i do the same? do i need to imprint my goals in real objects or places?

as for research purposes, i should, questions asking if you have any published materials hurts my eyes every time.

as for societal purposes, not today, not now.

as for you, i believe that whatever the purpose of your publication is, it would be nice to see it be done for good intentions, for once (hopefully).

wish me luck

done with essays. No More essays for me at least until i decided to take on another degree which would be highly unlikely to happen in the near future. the brain damage from this one will not wear off until at least 2-3 years or more.

2 more exams to go before i see the vice chancellor and get my degree..

need to focus. but cant seem to stop procrastinating. draft of updates are coming, just cant really squeeze it now.

Ganbatte!!!!

tinggal satu lagi

this has been one of those moments when im just being my extermely-lazy-self.
it all started good, me borrowed heaps of books and read the part that i think can be used for the Massive research essay. but since last friday, i've lost the will to be diligent and especially after getting feedback from my intl institution n orgn essay.

i feel that no matter how hard i try, im still behind. still dumb. still lacking that X factor.

the feedback was not that bad, but it puts me off for sure.

need to start writing. need to get this massive essay done. it's goddamn 60% of the assesment.

sigh!

on Nationalism

i can never forgive myself for volunteering to do this presentation on Nationalism. i managed to get out of it last semester, but i cant seem to nudge it this time.

worst timing, first of all, i didnt know when it was going to be and it turns out to be the same day as my contemporary world essay. so much for careful planning.

second, i know nothing about nationalism, the ones i got talks about theories and theories and theories with limited or no examples. and my sources are the same as the one of my lecturer. i thought i can just get away with that, but i cant cause it's the same thing.

third, Pete gave me concerning comments on my essay which means i have to rearrange it more than i thought i should. Shit.

i think im gonna bail on the presentation. im not a quitter, never have been. but this time.. im almost there. shit.

almost there

another day as a welcome girl, cant wait to get this done and over with.
extermely bored!!!