hey ho.. let's go!!!
dont know where i heard that from, i think from one of ramones's song. Mentioning Ramones brings me back to my long lost first love, glad that was over. :D
anyway.. today is buncit's bday, sent her a gift, called to say happy birthday and like usual complained about my day.
went to the last diplomacy and statecraft class of the semester, one excruciating listening period is over (YEAY) and got my second assignment back. the one i did it in a rush coz of false alarm about due date postponement which turns out to be true. spent a couple of minutes cursing AK for not letting me know, but i just cant wait to get it done and over with anyway. couldnt even be bothered to see it again. and it turns out GREAT. my highest achievements so far.
i love my proofreader, pete chester, though he was rushed and only given really late notice, his work really made a difference. thanks for the effort mate, i owe you one. and i quote "cant wait to get shit-faced (hammered, pole-axed, smashed, pissed etc) after my last exam. It's going to be epic".
here's pete reply on my email:
PS: Gracia, your essay was obviously exceptional in content and all it needed was a little bit of polishing in the prose department. Good work! Fucking Kamal and his damn Distinctions...He's got it in for me haha
alrighty, really need to get back to my EU exam.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
discussing the role and nature of European Union in the international scene
been trying to structure my argument to discuss EU's role and nature in the international scene. yes this is one of my take home exams. i just dont know why i cant type and let my thoughts flow like the river. i believed i've read enough materials to be able to at least scribbles 1000 words. but im only up to 319 at the moment and im still at the first question.
haiya.. why does it have to be so hard? i am my biggest enemy. i admit im not the most dilligent person in the world, but im not that lazy either. im laid back as i like to put it. thus im trying to see of writing this post will give me the mood i need to continue typing my exam.
In discussing the role and nature of European Union in the international scene, it can be clearly acknowledge that EU is an eminent actor. Its take on the economy and trade negotiations has proven to be its strongest international action. Although many scholars have tried to fit EU into existing theory of international relations, still a formula to fully describe EU's very existence is lacking. Moreover, international relations theory that is commonly used to describes pattern of actor is in international relations could not satisfy this need. EU's hybrid polity and its uniqueness cant fit into any of the prevailing paradigm. However, Sjostedt suggested a system of implementation that pretty much act as a typology of framework to understand EU's identity as international actors through five sets of instruments.
oh no me sleepy.
haiya.. why does it have to be so hard? i am my biggest enemy. i admit im not the most dilligent person in the world, but im not that lazy either. im laid back as i like to put it. thus im trying to see of writing this post will give me the mood i need to continue typing my exam.
In discussing the role and nature of European Union in the international scene, it can be clearly acknowledge that EU is an eminent actor. Its take on the economy and trade negotiations has proven to be its strongest international action. Although many scholars have tried to fit EU into existing theory of international relations, still a formula to fully describe EU's very existence is lacking. Moreover, international relations theory that is commonly used to describes pattern of actor is in international relations could not satisfy this need. EU's hybrid polity and its uniqueness cant fit into any of the prevailing paradigm. However, Sjostedt suggested a system of implementation that pretty much act as a typology of framework to understand EU's identity as international actors through five sets of instruments.
oh no me sleepy.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Setahun kemarin
just wanted to make sure i posted something to mark my one year existence in Melbourne. well if the date in this post says May 25th, 2008 then, it;s a year and a day. coz i was planning to write something on the 24th but something came up :D -good home-cooked dinner by Chris.
one year, i dont even know what to say.
less then 8 more months to go.
Ca yo!!!!
Ganbatte!!!
one year, i dont even know what to say.
less then 8 more months to go.
Ca yo!!!!
Ganbatte!!!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Cooking project
in the spirit of saving money, i have developed the hobby of cooking and trying new recipes.
there are not the first recipes i've tried but these two made me proud. My cooking is almost decent to be compared to my mom's, since she gave me the recipe and the best cook i've ever met. :D
this first one is called "misoa" basically sinquar soup with rice noodle and egg. trust me it's delicious though the looks is not that promising
and the second one is a mix recipe of jamie oliver and my mom. Honey Lemon Chicken. yum. too bad i put too much ginger in it.
there are not the first recipes i've tried but these two made me proud. My cooking is almost decent to be compared to my mom's, since she gave me the recipe and the best cook i've ever met. :D
this first one is called "misoa" basically sinquar soup with rice noodle and egg. trust me it's delicious though the looks is not that promising
and the second one is a mix recipe of jamie oliver and my mom. Honey Lemon Chicken. yum. too bad i put too much ginger in it.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Kasian sekali aku
Gak tau kenapa, hari ini terasa sepi sekali. Semua orang seperti nya sibuk dengan urusannya masing masing, dan aku mungkin harusnya sibuk juga dengan tugas dan take home exam. Tapi kenyataannya tidak begitu, aku merindukan kabar orang orang di sekitar ku dan mereka yang jauh disana. Bisa saja ini terjadi karena aku sedang sekali lagi menunda nunda kewajibanku sebagai mahasiswi. Tapi apa iya, kita gak bisa ngobrol ngobrol di tengah menghela napas dari mengerjakan tugas?
Tapi mungkin bukan itu intinya. Aku memang merasa kesepian dan sendirian. Tiada yang bisa di ajak bicara dan juga tidak punya siapa siapa yang mengajak bicara. Di poin yang pertama mungkin tidak ada yang bisa di ajak bicara terjadi karena aku juga tidak mencari orang buat di ajak bicara. Yang kedua memang benar ada nya. tidak punya siapa pun untuk di ajak bicara karena memang tidak ada yang mencari ku untuk di ajak berbicara.
Kasian sekali diriku ini. Bahkan tumpuan hati dan orang yang paling bisa ku andalkan pun tidak bisa ku ajak bicara. Si dia yang selalu menunggu telepon ku kali ini tidak pernah ada untuk menjawab telepon ku. Mungkin selama ini pikiran ku saja yang gila karena percaya kalau telepon ku di tunggu tunggu, padahal sama sekali tidak. Kasian sekali aku.
Kuat sekali dorongan untuk berbincang bincang dan bercanda tawa. Hampir gila rasanya membendung keinginan dan keputusasaan ku untuk memiliki teman berbincang bincang. Seharusnya bisa ku tepis semua pikiran pikiran bodoh yang membuang buang waktu ku ini. Tapi kenyataan nya aku tidak bisa. Apa salah ku? apa lagi yang harus ku perbuat agar semua ini berubah? Semakin jelas buat ku saat ini, selain kehilangan diri ku sendiri, aku juga telah kehilangan teman teman terbaik dalam hidup ku di tanah terasing ini tanpa bisa ku sadari sebabnya.
Setelah ku coba untuk mengajak orang lain berbicara, hasilnya tetap sama saja, aku seperti orang gila yang kelebihan energi dan bersemangat untuk berbicara mengenai hal hal tidak penting. Sementara orang itu di ujung sana sibuk membereskan tugasnya atau permainan komputernya dan hanya menjawab sekenanya saja. Kasian sekali aku.
Adakah yang juga merasa begini? Ku rasa tidak ,mereka semua terlihat bahagia dan antusias dengan kehidupan nya masing masing, apapun bentuk kehidupan mereka. Kalau hanya aku saja yang begini, berarti memang aku masalahnya. Kasian sekali aku.
Pelajaran berharga yang kupetik dari kejadian ini. Ketika hasrat dan dorongan untuk berbicara begitu kuat, janganlah mencari cari orang untuk di ajak bicara ketika aku tau aku tidak akan bisa menerima dengan lapang dada respon ala kadarnya. Jangan berharap semua orang juga antusias untuk berbicara dengan ku.
Buka mata mu lebar lebar BODOH!! Mana mungkin ada orang yang begitu antusiasnya mau berbicara dengan mu!!
Kasian sekali aku.
Tapi mungkin bukan itu intinya. Aku memang merasa kesepian dan sendirian. Tiada yang bisa di ajak bicara dan juga tidak punya siapa siapa yang mengajak bicara. Di poin yang pertama mungkin tidak ada yang bisa di ajak bicara terjadi karena aku juga tidak mencari orang buat di ajak bicara. Yang kedua memang benar ada nya. tidak punya siapa pun untuk di ajak bicara karena memang tidak ada yang mencari ku untuk di ajak berbicara.
Kasian sekali diriku ini. Bahkan tumpuan hati dan orang yang paling bisa ku andalkan pun tidak bisa ku ajak bicara. Si dia yang selalu menunggu telepon ku kali ini tidak pernah ada untuk menjawab telepon ku. Mungkin selama ini pikiran ku saja yang gila karena percaya kalau telepon ku di tunggu tunggu, padahal sama sekali tidak. Kasian sekali aku.
Kuat sekali dorongan untuk berbincang bincang dan bercanda tawa. Hampir gila rasanya membendung keinginan dan keputusasaan ku untuk memiliki teman berbincang bincang. Seharusnya bisa ku tepis semua pikiran pikiran bodoh yang membuang buang waktu ku ini. Tapi kenyataan nya aku tidak bisa. Apa salah ku? apa lagi yang harus ku perbuat agar semua ini berubah? Semakin jelas buat ku saat ini, selain kehilangan diri ku sendiri, aku juga telah kehilangan teman teman terbaik dalam hidup ku di tanah terasing ini tanpa bisa ku sadari sebabnya.
Setelah ku coba untuk mengajak orang lain berbicara, hasilnya tetap sama saja, aku seperti orang gila yang kelebihan energi dan bersemangat untuk berbicara mengenai hal hal tidak penting. Sementara orang itu di ujung sana sibuk membereskan tugasnya atau permainan komputernya dan hanya menjawab sekenanya saja. Kasian sekali aku.
Adakah yang juga merasa begini? Ku rasa tidak ,mereka semua terlihat bahagia dan antusias dengan kehidupan nya masing masing, apapun bentuk kehidupan mereka. Kalau hanya aku saja yang begini, berarti memang aku masalahnya. Kasian sekali aku.
Pelajaran berharga yang kupetik dari kejadian ini. Ketika hasrat dan dorongan untuk berbicara begitu kuat, janganlah mencari cari orang untuk di ajak bicara ketika aku tau aku tidak akan bisa menerima dengan lapang dada respon ala kadarnya. Jangan berharap semua orang juga antusias untuk berbicara dengan ku.
Buka mata mu lebar lebar BODOH!! Mana mungkin ada orang yang begitu antusiasnya mau berbicara dengan mu!!
Kasian sekali aku.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
It's a Blessing
i recently complained to a friend about the things that i don't have at the moment, building a relationship with HIM- who i seem to be having problems forgetting- and someone i used to consider as my best friend.
a friend told me to be grateful of what you dont have at the moment. It is all a blessing. Simply because having them in my life would only add up the complexities and burdens in life.
a positive way to look at things.
a friend told me to be grateful of what you dont have at the moment. It is all a blessing. Simply because having them in my life would only add up the complexities and burdens in life.
a positive way to look at things.
Friday, May 9, 2008
someone like HIM
after not being able to get a good night sleep because of the EU ASEAN presentation that i had to do today, i was once again rejuvenated by a lecture. i got the passion to learn and believe that i actually enjoy and want to study.
It was all because of Nick Bisley. He is now an associate professor in la trobe uni and was formerly monash's diplomacy and trade program manager. i didnt get the privilege of being in his class room and being able to absorb all of the knowlegde out of him this semester, cause he moved to la trobe just at the time im starting taking his units here in monash. i am missing out a lot.
i was just so amazed on how i cant stop writing due to this flow of information coming out of him, yet it was only a one hour lecture, something that i havent done in the past year.
it is actually sad to see that the enlightment came this late in my study but, i reckon it's better late than never. i was so caught up with my frustration of having a bad to so-so lecturer that led me to believe that i am not really learning anything or not being able to learn anything. i should have snapped out of this along time ago, but i didnt, not until now.
how can i not ask for more, when you have these set of lecturers that have the experience, abundant experience but do not know how to teach properly whilst of the other side you got this really good speaker and knowledgeable lecturer that triggers you criticism and makes you want to learn more. i definitely opt for the latter.
unfortunately this last option is not readily available anymore in monash, so i gotta ask around and see my chances of actually getting in one of Nick's class in la trobe uni. wish me luck guys...
the point that im trying to make is that, i am so thrilled and mesmerized and rejuvenated by attending a lecture of such brilliant and vibrant speaker. i can only wish more of my lecturer now are like that.
coming to lecture should trigger me to want to learn more and more, not the other way around.
ps: Thank you very much for giving me the motivation to study again Nick.
It was all because of Nick Bisley. He is now an associate professor in la trobe uni and was formerly monash's diplomacy and trade program manager. i didnt get the privilege of being in his class room and being able to absorb all of the knowlegde out of him this semester, cause he moved to la trobe just at the time im starting taking his units here in monash. i am missing out a lot.
i was just so amazed on how i cant stop writing due to this flow of information coming out of him, yet it was only a one hour lecture, something that i havent done in the past year.
it is actually sad to see that the enlightment came this late in my study but, i reckon it's better late than never. i was so caught up with my frustration of having a bad to so-so lecturer that led me to believe that i am not really learning anything or not being able to learn anything. i should have snapped out of this along time ago, but i didnt, not until now.
how can i not ask for more, when you have these set of lecturers that have the experience, abundant experience but do not know how to teach properly whilst of the other side you got this really good speaker and knowledgeable lecturer that triggers you criticism and makes you want to learn more. i definitely opt for the latter.
unfortunately this last option is not readily available anymore in monash, so i gotta ask around and see my chances of actually getting in one of Nick's class in la trobe uni. wish me luck guys...
the point that im trying to make is that, i am so thrilled and mesmerized and rejuvenated by attending a lecture of such brilliant and vibrant speaker. i can only wish more of my lecturer now are like that.
coming to lecture should trigger me to want to learn more and more, not the other way around.
ps: Thank you very much for giving me the motivation to study again Nick.
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